We All Need Somebody

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Today, when I got out of bed, I experienced severe pain.  The doctor’s use a scale that goes to 10 to determine pain levels, with 10 being debilitating, unbearable pain.  I believe the pain this morning would be a 12.  I could barely walk, the pain was so intense.  I’d like to say I got up and began confessing healing scriptures and praising God and thanking Him for my healing.  Those would have been great things to do, but I didn’t do those.  I murmured and complained and wondered how I would get through the day like this.  I had a very small crisis of faith.  For a few moments, only a few, I questioned if healing was really for everyone.  I know better, but pain makes me think crazy things at times.

I considered posting on Facebook and asking friends and family to pray for me, but I didn’t do that either.  Some people who love me would worry and I didn’t want that. I know this will pass.

I texted my friend and prayer partner and let her know I wouldn’t make to prayer this morning because of pain.  I didn’t ask her to pray.   I didn’t ask because I knew I didn’t need to.  She would pray because that is what prayer warriors do – they pray.  I knew she would pray because she is my friend and that is what friends do – pray  for their hurting friends.

She texted her prayer to me, she prayed that God’s Kingdom would come to my body in Jesus’ name.  A kingdom that doesn’t include sickness, pain, suffering, mental torment, lack of any sort.  A kingdom of blessings that only God can bring to a broken life or body.

What is the hurt that has come your way? 

Disease, sickness, financial lack, betrayal, relational problems?

Are you just sick and tired of being sick and tired? 

Have you asked for prayer? 

Do you have a go to person that you can lean on during this difficult season of your life?

Could you be blessed by having the kingdom of God bursting loose upon your life bringing healing and joy and peace and abundance?

Having pain and suffering and lack and relational problems and financial woes and disease and being in need doesn’t make you a less than person; it just means you are human and life sometimes brings these things to all of us.

Don’t suffer alone; don’t suffer in silence.  Don’t let pain isolate you from others.  We all need somebody, sometime.

If you need someone to pray for you or someone to lean on, can I suggest you ask God to show you that person?  If you need someone to pray for you and someone to lean on, I volunteer.  You lean on me and I will lean on you and together we will see God’s kingdom here on earth!

Lord Jesus, thank You for putting people in my life that I can lean on.  And thank You for the people that feel they can lean on me.  Thank You, too, that my crisis of faith is shorter lived than ones I have had in the past.  I pray for my family and friends that Your kingdom would explode upon their lives and we would all be able to say, only because of God!  Only God!  Help me to be the prayer warrior and friend that my family and friends can count on, in Your name, I pray, Amen.

Now Choose Life!

I woke up the other morning in a terrible funk.  It was 1 am and I had difficulty returning to sleep.  The problem was severe pain in my left hand.  Enough pain to nauseate me and keep me awake and cause me once again to question divine healing.  I have been reading a book entitled “You Can Be Healed – How to Believe God for Your Healing”  by Billy Joe Daugherty.  He was our pastor in Tulsa for five years.  I loved him and loved that church. The problem in those early morning hours was one that had been darting in and out of my mind for days.  One of the last chapters in the book is called “How to Live Longer”.  He wrote about Psalm 90:10 which says’ “The days of our lives are seventy years; And if by reason of strength they are eighty years” and numerous other verses that promise long life. He talked about making our words line up with the Word of God and building our faith and such.  He wrote about how death is our giving up our breath, not succumbing to disease that takes us out early.  All good stuff.  All Biblical stuff.   The stumbling block to me that week and that early am was just this….  Pastor Billy Joe died before he was 60 of cancer.

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As I lay there that morning my thoughts ran like this – if God didn’t heal him, a pastor, who devoted his life to ministering to people, ushering countless thousands of people into the kingdom of God and witnessing miracles of healing too numerous to count, then what chance did I have of being healed?  I am a homemaker, a mother, a wife, a grandmother.  My greatest success in a day is getting dinner done and not leaving the kitchen totally trashed.  And some days even that doesn’t happen.

I continued along in this line of thought no doubt because of pain and low serotonin until I started building a case against me being able to receive healing from God. But when I got out of bed that morning I opened my devotional and read this verse: Romans 8:32 -He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things?

I gotta say it brought me to my knees and to my senses.  God is not holding back on me.  I can’t answer why I still have so much pain when I believe (most of the time) for my healing.  And I can’t answer why Pastor Billy Joe died before 60 but I do know that I can choose to look at the stumbling blocks that cause me to doubt or I can look at the promises God gave me in His Word.  But I can’t do both.  The choice is mine.

untitled (8)In Deuteronomy,  the people of God are given the choice of choosing life or choosing death.  Seems like a no brainer, but God knew it wasn’t.  He gave the answer, choose life.  “This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live”

Looking at the unhealed, cataloging the pain,  listing evidences that would tell me that God doesn’t heal today or won’t heal today is choosing death.  Looking at the promises of God is choosing life and the choice is mine.  Today,  I choose life. Among the first words Pastor Billy Joe’s wife Sharon said publicly after his death were words spoken in connection with diving healing.  She said, “I still believe”.

In spite of the pain that would tell me otherwise, I too, still believe.

Father forgive me for doubting Your goodness and Your willingness to give me all things?  Even healing.  You didn’t hold back Your own son and You are not holding back on me now.  Help me to look beyond the stumbling blocks and the unanswered questions so that I can fix my faith on You and goodness.  Amen.

God With You, God With Me


Written by Bob McGee

Emmanuel, Emmanuel,

His name is called Emmanuel

God with us, revealed in us

His name is called Emmanuel.

P1060202This song reminds us of a promise of God.  The promise of His continual presence with us, in us, around us, for us.  That means everything He is is with us, with me, even now.  Last night was another sleepless night because of pain and when I got up to a beautiful Saturday, husband and son off fishing, I had so many wonderful ideas of what I could do with my free time.  But once again, pain redefined how I would spend my day.

I started to wallow in self-pity but then this song came to me.  God is with me.  How does that help me today when I am wracked with pain?  Just this – in the Old Testament, when the people of God were going out to do battle against their enemies, sometimes they sought the Lord and sometimes, they failed to do that.  When they had His presence with them, victory was theirs.  When they didn’t, well, they lost the battle.  Time and time again.

In the New Testament, whenever Jesus showed up on the scene, people were delivered from demonic possession and healed of ALL their diseases.  God with us bringing victory.  Jesus with us bringing healing.

Ok, so my plans were changed once again by pain I’d rather not have.  But it’s my choice whether I wallow in self-pity or meditate on the nearness of my Savior.  One brings me peace and one brings me anguish.  

So my new plan for today?  Spend time with my ever-present Savior, my Healer, my Friend.  My to do list will just have to wait. Today, I will just hang out, I will just be a child sitting on my Father’s lap.

Emmanuel, Can I just crawl up in Your lap today?  Will You just hold me?  I need to feel Your strong arms around me, lay my head against Your chest and hear Your heartbeat.  Pain has changed my plans once again, but as I sit with You,  will You redefine my day for me?   I need You; thank You for Your promise to always be with me.  In Jesus’s name, Amen.

Do you need healing?  Can I pray for you?  Please let me know.

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God Knows

I woke up Sunday morning with these words running through my mind – God knows. It hit me like fresh revelation and I just kept meditating on those words over and over again. God knows.  God knows what?  He knows I am having a hard time getting out of bed today. He knows the pain I am in and the uncertainty I have about the future.  He knows my deepest need, my unspoken dreams, my most crippling fears. He knows what tickles me and what gets my blood boiling.  He knows what path to lead me on, what doors to open and what doors to close.  He knows just the right words to whisper to my heart.  He knows the part of me that I won’t show you, the part of me I’d rather you not see.  He knows that I need Him much more than I realize.  He knows the condition of my heart – the good, the bad, the ugly.

He tells me this in Psalm 139:  O Lord, Thou hast searched me and known me.  Thou dost know when I sit down and when I rise up;  Thou dost understand my thought from afar.  Thou dost scrutinize my path and my lying down, And art intimately acquainted with all ways. 

Yes, God knows.  He knows my pain and He knows the day of my deliverance from this pain.  He knows what is causing in and what it takes to heal it.  For reasons only He knows, He hasn’t chosen to tell me and believe me, I have asked.  Repeatedly.

Can I rest in His promises even I don’t have answers?  Can I trust Him when the pain tells me – not today? Can it just be enough that He knows?  Can I find peace in the midst of the pain?  Can I just stop asking the questions and focus on my Healer and His promises?

God, who knows the end from the beginning, hasn’t lost track of me and my suffering and in His infinite way, He has chosen the perfect day for my pain to come to an end.  I don’t know but God does.  And that’s good enough for me.

Infinite, All Powerful, All Knowing God thank You for noticing me.  For knowing me as intimately as You do, for even desiring that kind of intimacy with me.  Thank You for showing me what You are like through the person of Jesus Christ who healed people by Your power and in Your name.  Thank You that my day of deliverance is written on Your calendar and You alone know that date.  Help me to trust and be patient until that day that You deliver me in Jesus’s name.  Amen.

Are you in need of healing?  Can I pray for you/ with you?  Please let me know.

If you have a healing testimony, I would love to share it.

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Chloe – My Therapy Dog

And David was prospering in all his ways for the Lord was with him.   I Samuel 18:14

David was being pursued by Saul – his enemy.  Not because any fault of David’s, but because his enemy knew he had favor with God.

What is the enemy that is pursuing you?  Pain, sickness, disease, lingering illness? These things don’t come because of some failing of ours but because we have a very real enemy whose purpose is to steal, kill and destroy and if it weren’t for the Lord being with us, we might be destroyed.

But God made the way for us to be continually in His presence.  In fact, He made the way for us to be the place of His presence here on earth by the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. We can expect to prosper, even in the face of enemy, as David did, simply because the Lord is with us.


My dog Chloe has an intuitive nature; she would make a great therapy dog.  We were in the woods the other day trying to climb a sharp incline, which wouldn’t cause a problem if my knees could bend the way they are supposed to.  Chloe, knowing I needed help, would take one step ahead and wait for me to take that step.  Then she would take another one and wait for me.  All this on a loose leash.  She continued this, one step at a time,  until we made it to the top at which point she began tugging on the leash like she usually does.  It was amazing; my dog who is so eager to run, took one step at a time to help me when I needed it.

Even more amazing is that God is with us, step by step, leading us to victory.  Ever patient, ever present, leading, guiding, supporting. What is the sharp incline you are trying to scale?  What seems insurmountable to you?  Can you take comfort in knowing that the God of the universe loves you enough to slow down and stay with you every minute, every step, every day?

Prospering in all our ways includes prospering in our bodily health.  Pain, sickness, disease, – these are tactics of the enemy.  Jesus defeated the enemy on our behalf on the cross and ultimately, we will see the victory in our lives.  Until then, we can take by faith, that we are prospering in all areas of our lives because the Lord is with us.  Expect to prosper.  Expect healing.

Thank you Father for choosing to be with me, for wanting that kind of a place in my life.  Thank You for causing me to prosper in my health.  Forgive me for the times I see the enemy as bigger than I see You, open my eyes to see You more clearly and thank You that as I face obstacles in my path that would hinder me, that You are ever present, ever patient as You lead, guide, and support me, step by step to victory in Jesus’ name.  Amen

Trust Fund


When I was a young teen, I was informed by my father of a trust fund my parents had set up for my college education.  I would not be able to access if until several years later and he only told me once but I believed him.  I wonder, though, what it would have done to his heart if he had found me on occasions wringing my hands and questioning how, oh how, am I ever going to get to go to college.  I suspect it would hurt him deeply.  I didn’t doubt the trust fund because I trusted my father.  You can probably see where I am going with this.

Our Heavenly Father, whose resources are unlimited has provided a “trust fund” for us.  He has provided resources for our journey here on earth – provision for our physical need and our spiritual needs.  He is Jehovah Jireh, the God who sees ahead and makes provision.  He knew I would need healing before I did.  He knew others, including you, would need healing long before you ever did and He made provision for that healing.  The provision for our healing came through His Son, Jesus who took not only our sins upon Him on the cross, but our pains and our diseases.

Just as surely as my earthly father looked ahead, saw an upcoming need and made provision for that need, my heavenly Father has looked ahead on my behalf and your behalf and made provision for the healing we need. What does it do to our Father’s heart when we are filled with anxiety and stressing over our need of something He has already taken care of?  I suppose it grieves Him the way it would have grieved my father.  When Jesus said, “it is finished”, I believe He meant it.  All that needed to be done for our salvation (which includes healing) was done;  the trust fund was set up for us.  We don’t have to be stressed out and doubting while we wait for our healing, we can trust that our Father who loves us best and has unlimited resources has paid for our healing.  There’s not a better insurance program out there than that.

What a gracious and compassionate Father You are.  Thank You for calling me to be Your child, for providing for me, for making a way for my salvation and healing.  Forgive me for the times I have spent my waiting time worried and anxious, help my unbelief.  Help me to be one who You can use to point others to You.  Amen.

Cast Your Cares

Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.  I Peter 5: 6-7

I just finished a great book called “Teach Us To Sit Still”, written by Tim Parks.  The man is a self-proclaimed skeptic about religion and alternative methods of healing, but after living with constant pain for years, he stumbled upon some relief which he shares in this book.

A lot of his relief came from simply giving up the fight against the pain and learning to accept this present moment for what it is.  I discovered when I read it how much of my time and energy is spent trying to deny or ignore the pain as opposed to just accepting that it is what it is and finding my peace in God in these present moments.  The energy spent is fighting the pain only makes it worse.  It adds tension and fear and stress that rob me of joy and peace.

He talks a lot about being at peace with your body which he admits is a lot harder to do than it seems, especially when the body is wracked with pain.  I discovered this through his writings; I am not at all at peace with my body.  I spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about my body, what I can do to make it better, what have I done to hurt it, etc.  Not exactly being at peace.  Now I am choosing to practice letting go of my need to rail against the pain and all the unknown concerns that go with it.  Not an easy thing to do.

What about you?  Do you spend a good deal of your precious now moments wishing away pain or disease or talking about it or feeling sorry for yourself because of it?  I know I have.

I have to purpose to let go of the fight.  I can by reminding myself that God is for me; He is infinitely involved in the small and large details of my life.  Nothing that has happened to me or will happen to me is beyond His knowledge or His ability to take care of.  Nothing. I can cast my cares on Him because He cares so much for me.  Is it easy?  No.  I am learning to take one step at a time.  To moment by moment recognize when my thoughts become so totally focused on me and my pain and not on Him and His care.  In those moments, I speak this verse over and over again as many times as I need to until I am once again, focused on Him.  And I have discovered that the pain has lessened when I do.

Father, teach me to be still.  To let go of my need for everything to be fixed right now.  Help me to cast my cares on You because You care so much for me.  When I am fighting against my pain, help me to remember that Jesus took that pain, the fight has been won and I can rest in Your peace.  Amen

Qualifying Pain

Ever feel like your pain – be it emotional, physical, relational or any other pain – is too small to bother God with?  I certainly have and I have heard others make comments like that.  Sounds humble doesn’t it?  The comment is usually backed up with acknowledging others who are so much worse off.  Let them go the altar; they need it more. The problem is that, though it sounds humble, that kind of thinking isn’t humble, in all likelihood that may be pride.  That thought could be roughly translated – I can handle this myself. Perhaps  it can also be translated – I don’t think God cares about the “little” details of my life.  It could also be translated – God may not be able to help those who need it more if I ask Him to help me.

Doesn’t sound quite so humble any more.

God cares about your pain.  He cares about mine.  And none of His caring for us limits the care He can give to all the hurting people all around the world.  Our pain doesn’t have to register 7.6 on the Richter scale to get His attention.

Remember the story of the sparrows Jesus told?

He said, “Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies?  Yet not one of them is forgotten by God”.  He goes on to say, “Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows”.  Luke 12: 6-7

The Message Bible puts it like this  “What’s the price of two or three pet canaries? Some loose change, right? But God never overlooks a single one. And he pays even greater attention to you, down to the last detail—even numbering the hairs on your head! So don’t be intimidated by all this bully talk. You’re worth more than a million canaries.”

Bully talk allows us to talk ourselves out of meeting God at the altar and we should be able to recognize that those thoughts come from the father of lies and not from God.

You are worth so much that God sent His one and only Son, Jesus to pay for your healing, your deliverance, your peace of mind.  Don’t qualify pain.  Yours doesn’t have to be greater than someone else’s to matter to God.  I don’t have a father’s heart, but I do have a mother’s heart and I can tell you that anything, regardless of relative size, that hurts my children, hurts me.  I would move heaven and earth to heal their hurts.  Of course, I can’t, but the good news is that God who could move heaven and earth, did so on their behalf, on your behalf, on my behalf.

Qualifying our pain limits God.

Father in heaven,  thank You for keeping such a close watch on me and my loved ones.  Thank you that every pain of ours is noticed by You and You stand ready to heal us.  Your love for us is hard to comprehend, help us to embrace that love more freely and forgive us for the times we would limit You in our lives.  Amen.

The What Abouts

Today as I write this, there are symptoms of pain in my body. These symptoms would tell me I am not healed or worse, that maybe, God doesn’t really heal everyone anymore or even worse still, maybe God doesn’t love me enough to heal me. I have to reject these thoughts, often many times throughout the day and even into the late hours of the night when I can’t sleep.  Instead, I have to think on what I know to be true.   Among the things I know to be true is this:  my experience or lack of experience doesn’t change the truth I find in God’s Word. Neither do my past experiences of receiving healing prove that truth any more than these symptoms of pain deny that truth. God’s Word is true regardless of my experiences.

When healing is delayed it is all to easy to get caught up in doubts and the what abouts.  Right now, my what abouts sound like this -what about this pain? What about the sleepless nights? What about the time I had faith filled people lay hands on me and pray and yet…pain? What about the scriptures I memorized and meditate on and still, I experience pain? What about when I was anointed with oil and still I need my pain meds?

I don’t have pat answers for the what about questions and I would be suspicious of anyone who did.  But I know this, the more I ask these questions, the more I waiver in my faith.

Today as we were driving along, our son who thinks he will be driving soon (not) asked me where I keep my eyes when I am driving, what part of the road.  I explained to him that I look at where I am going farther up the road.  He questioned why don’t I just look over the hood to the road directly in front of the car.  I told him that when I do that, not only is my vision limited, but I start to wobble more and more in my lane but if I keep my eyes up ahead to where I want to be going, I can see more of what is around me and I can remain steady in my course.

My goal is Jesus, to be like Him, to be with Him, to serve Him and also to receive all of what He purchased for me on that cross if for no other reason than for the fact that it cost Him everything.  And so healing is a part of my destination.

Trying to answer the what abouts is like trying to drive when all I am looking at is what is directly in front of my hood. I lose vision and my course becomes wobbly.  I can make peace with the fact that I don’t have all the answers because I know the One who does. The what about questions lead me astray, take my eyes off Jesus and His sacrifice on the cross and put my eyes back on what I can see or, in my case, feel.  I will make it to my destination by God’s grace and my body will be free of the symptoms that try to tell me otherwise.

Thank You Lord Jesus that You lead my in paths that are right for me.  Thank You that as I keep my eyes on You, the what abouts become dim.  May You be the only destination I desire, may You be where my path always leads.  When my eyes wander would You whisper to me, nudge me, interrupt me, whatever it takes, to help me get my eyes back on You.  Amen

Do you need healing?  I would love to pray for you/with you.  Please let me know.

Do you have a healing testimony?  I would love to share it with others.


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New Address

For He delivered us from the domain of darkness, and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son.  Colossians 1: 13

When we begin our new life with God through Christ Jesus, we are not only relationally changed, we are positionally changed.  Our old address is the domain of darkness and our new address is the kingdom of His beloved Son.  Things operate differently in this kingdom than they do at our old address.  In this kingdom we are told that the way to life is to die to ourselves, that giving is better than receiving, that miracles are the norm and not the exception.  The currency that moves things in the domain of darkness is money, but the currency that moves things in the kingdom of His beloved Son is faith.

Remember the story of the woman with the issue of blood?  She had spent all her money on doctors to no avail.  Money that is the currency of that kingdom did nothing for her when she needed healing.  I don’t know about you but I have spent a good deal of money on doctors to be here today in pain and having no answers coming forth from them anymore.  Sometimes, even though money is the currency at my old address, it simply doesn’t always bring the goods I need.

Jesus, seeing that woman’s faith, healed her.  The currency in the kingdom of my new address brought about her healing.  Faith still moves the hand of God.  Faith can bring the goods that money can’t.  (I am not saying don’t see doctors; please don’t hear me wrong).  Romans 10:17 tells us this:  So faith comes by hearing [what is told], and what is heard comes by the preaching [of the message that came from the lips] of Christ (the Messiah Himself).  And did Jesus say?  He said, “Your faith has made you well. Go in peace”.

Jesus, my Healer, my Savior, my Soon and Coming King, how I love that You love me, that You see me, You see the faith I have and the gap between my faith and trust.  Help my unbelief, help me to trust.  How I long to hear You whisper those words to me – your faith has made you well.  Go in peace.  Thank You for I know I will hear them.  Amen.